unhappy..

That pretty much says it all...i'm just not happy. I've made myself socially disconnected from the cyber community and yet i'm using this blogging site as a tool of communicating my thoughts. It's funny I guess cuz in the end...i'm still connected. I've put myself out there and i will forever more be in the system. I feel happy though that access to my life has been limited to those who choose to make the deeper effort of having to find me rather than click on a page to see what i am up to. I miss the hellos and the conversations that take place. Just looking back at older pictures, before "like" buttons were placed, there was communication. If people had something to say, they would write it down or just say it. It's so displacing and detached with this whole "like" app. There's going to be an internet or electronic app for everything..nobody's going to communicate via mouth or phone call or anything else. It's all about mainstream communication...it's annoying... I miss having normal conversations but i like the option of having those conversations with people i don't really speak to. I like meeting new people and testing the boundaries with them. I think being away from others and the social scene of Facebook will help me just talk to other people and i already see improvements with that. I'm shocked at the conversations i've been having with people now that i'm off. I am reverting back to old ways and thinking...THINKING...nobody ever said to stop, yet it seemed so easy to not have to put that much thought into something once one is so detached...