I'm suffering from an absolute dissatisfaction with how things are. The current conditions of my surroundings are well...i'm not happy... I can't get out of this funk. I don't know what it is exactly...well there are a lot of things. I'm just not happy with anything. I wish there was some direction in my life...motivation and just a point where the pieces of the puzzle could just come together again and not just stay jumbled or spread apart. It's like when you have those last few pieces and you're forcing it to fit but in the end, it's the wrong piece and you have to keep searching and testing...Eventually there's an answer but still...what a search...it just seems so endless right now... If i knew what i even wanted that would make me happy. I want to do so much but there's no time for me to do all of it. I have to be stuck with the answer of "pick"...it's not good enough. I hate that answer. I want to be able to do so much. How can I just combine it all into one thing where I won't end up killing myself from slave labor of trying to just do everything.